Showing posts with label January 3. Show all posts
Showing posts with label January 3. Show all posts

4.1.16

Hanya Angka

Jadi sebenernya saya lagi belajar supaya tidak terlalu mempedulikan yang namanya "HUT" atau apalah (walaupun sebenernya saya observasi juga sih terhadap lingkungan sekitar hehe). Semakin tua, yang namanya HUT ini menjadi semakin 'gak ada artinya. Di awal 2016 saya sempat jalan-jalan di kawasan Kota Bandung dan memperhatikan ibu-ibu yang ultah ke-61-nya sedang dirayakan di caffe yang saya sambangi bersama teman-teman. Saya tertegun waktu itu. Apakah ibu itu selama 61 kali setiap tahun dalam hidupnya mengalami perayaan-perayaan seperti itu? Karena sudah terbiasa, barangkali apabila perayaan tersebut tidak muncul, dia akan kecewa kali ya.

Tapi ya sudah. Saya kan bukan dia he hehe.


Dua enam.

Usia dimana saya akan mulai mengatakan bahwa "umur itu hanya angka". Saya sekali lagi 'gak akan menuliskan resolusi apalah. Saya mau hidup lebih spontan. Rencana besar pasti punya dong. Tapi kali ini biarkan Dia yang mengarahkan. Ya selama ini juga sih. Cuma porsi saya kayaknya terlalu besar dan terlalu "sok tau". Saya yang harus lebih paham dan berserah diri. Semoga do'a-do'a yang setiap tanggal tiga di bulan satu yang menghampiri inbox, wall, line, BBM, dsb. itu dikabulkan (thanks pemirsa!). Insya Allah, do'a yang baik akan kembali pada yang mendo'akan. Aamiin.

Alhamdulillah masih ada kesempatan hidup dan memperbaiki banyak hal (atas izin-Nya). Semoga mampu, semoga sabar, semoga lebih bijak. Ya sudah gitu aja. HBD to me. Biasa aja ding.

3.1.15

Twenty Five

And here we go again. Time flies so fast I almost surprised. Last year was a very long one, heck I wonder why this year felt like a flash. A spark I almost forgot to adore. A bliss I hardly accept. A crazy year with ups and downs. Nothing was actually experienced by myself. I was just absorb and felt too much empathy towards others' drama. But let's skip that. That phase is over.

So yeah. I am twenty five now. OMG TWENTY FIVE! If I were a cat I may be 3,5 years old LOL.
Sailormoon versi gueh. Belakangan lagi suka lagi sama tokoh ini. Otaku alert!

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Sengaja saya tulis intro dengan bahasa Inggris supaya pembaca saya yang bukan orang Indonesia (kalau saja mereka masih baca ya hehe) bisa tahu kalau ini postingan tahunan yang biasa saya tulis di tanggal segini. Perlu saya tambahin juga, ini saya bikinnya nyicil beberapa hari dan nge-post-nya mungkin akan dijadwalin otomatis. Yah.. saya merasa dua puluh lima adalah angka yang spesial. Seperti angka tujuh belas atau dua satu.

6.1.13

2013 = 23

I told you this like over and over again, but well I can't help not to say this. So this is why I'm excited with the whole new year thing: I've got my birthday just 2 days after the NYE. Hehe. No, I'm not really celebrating myself. It's the same day as the other days are. Only, people send us their prayer, their gifts, and their treat-requests. (Thanks for everyone who sent me the birthday messages, texts, walls, mentions and calls).

One of the best moments was I've got a rainbow cake for my birthday from my new friends in the same boarding house. It was really unexpected because they are my new friends who apparently haven't know me well to give me something like a cake. But I do appreciate that. Big thank you guys! :)

Thank you "Pinky Residence fellows" :)
The best part is of course the prayers you guys sent me. You know, I truly believe in the power of prayers. So I'm not bothered with that. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. 0:)

4.1.13

If Happiness and Grief Should Be Combined

So, yeah, I'm 24 now. And it's like an obligation for me to write about my last year and resolution and whatsoever similar, on the 3rd of January, right on my birth day. But today is not the happiest day of my life since yesterday my Grandma has passed away. It's quite a surprise because the one who has been sick is my Grandpa, not her. And she was just suddenly left us. Yeah, it's that sudden and what a surprise - I really don't like surprises and heck this is an ugly one. 

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From now on, I'll remember my birth date as my Grandma's funeral date, too. :(

The last time I met her like, two weeks ago when I took my first leisure day-off, she asked my mother about my marriage plan. I refused to answer it because well, I hasn't plan any (a note: I don't talk about my private life in this blog). It's a common question for girls my age and I don't really bothered. What really bothered me is, when people keep talking about "that plan" whilst they passed away like one by one. It really is a grief. Back to the topic, so my Grandma, she's my father's mom. My elementary school is just in front of her little shop. I used to visit her in my break time, along with my childhood friend, and my cousins. We used to sleep over in her house and listen to the stories my Grandpa told us. She spoiled us all, especially me. We have a lot of similarities. I even imagine myself as her when I grow very old. Yeah, we're that similar.

But now she's passed away. Today is her funeral and I can't make it to attend. As you know that I live in Padang, and my hometown is Sumedang, and I have to take flight to Bandung or Jakarta to get there. The time is just not enough to make it. It's so hurt when I call my father and hear his shaking voice and told me to calm. Instead, I was upset. And the reason I was upset is confusing, is it because: I can't make it to her funeral, I didn't get to see her for the last time, or the fact that my birth day is ruined?

By the way, last December I got so many dreadful (did I say dreadful?) experiences. I won't tell you everything but my carelessness was finally caught me. So my resolution to 2014 is, to be least careless and minimize my rush-ness behavior. Uh, I don't know. I can't really write anything useful right now because of my grief. Well thank you for all your kind attention to congratulate and pray me. You don't know how much it means to me. And please, please, send my Grandma your prayer too. Today is my birthday, but also my Grandma's funeral. So you're gonna pray us both. Thank you again for reading this. :)

P.S: Don't worry, I didn't write this during my work hour, everyone here is doing our aerobic activity and since I'm not in the mood to do it, I wrote this super quick post. Thanks.

5.1.12

Officially Twenty Two

Last 2 days was my 22nd birthday. Never thought that it'll be announced by our class leader in our very class room! So ashamed.. But never mind, I'm still acquaintance to almost everyone in here (read: my work place).

Well like I once said, I used to make a little review about my past year and my expectations about my future year. I reviewed my progress on my way to pursue my dream and try to guess what was threaten me in the past year and I was like, will I survive this year? Am I getting closer to my dream? Will I find anything that I've been searching for? etc.

My introspection+resolution for my 22nd birthday. The image was taken by my friend's blackberry and it's blurry. Pardon this!
Orhan Pamuk once said in his White Castle book: "sometimes you're too afraid to inspect your mistakes". And so did it happened. I did a lot of mistakes, sins, su'udzon stuffs, etc and sometimes I have a hard feeling when I have to admit it. But every year I always renew my promise to be getting better and better. I have to raise my faith, raise my husnudzon feeling, more thankful and of course, more confident.

FYI, I write this post while sleepy because my schedule is very tight these days! But it's okay. Thanks to Ibu and Bapak for always there for me, and give me the biggest support ever while everyone look me down. Thanks to my best friends, thanks for your patience to listen to my childish blabs. And thank you so much for your attention, your prayer, and every wishes you sent to me verbally, by texts, twitter or facebook. That means a lot to me. Seriously! And good luck for y'all, too. May 2012 treat you right. Amiin.