If Happiness and Grief Should Be Combined

So, yeah, I'm 24 now. And it's like an obligation for me to write about my last year and resolution and whatsoever similar, on the 3rd of January, right on my birth day. But today is not the happiest day of my life since yesterday my Grandma has passed away. It's quite a surprise because the one who has been sick is my Grandpa, not her. And she was just suddenly left us. Yeah, it's that sudden and what a surprise - I really don't like surprises and heck this is an ugly one. 

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From now on, I'll remember my birth date as my Grandma's funeral date, too. :(

The last time I met her like, two weeks ago when I took my first leisure day-off, she asked my mother about my marriage plan. I refused to answer it because well, I hasn't plan any (a note: I don't talk about my private life in this blog). It's a common question for girls my age and I don't really bothered. What really bothered me is, when people keep talking about "that plan" whilst they passed away like one by one. It really is a grief. Back to the topic, so my Grandma, she's my father's mom. My elementary school is just in front of her little shop. I used to visit her in my break time, along with my childhood friend, and my cousins. We used to sleep over in her house and listen to the stories my Grandpa told us. She spoiled us all, especially me. We have a lot of similarities. I even imagine myself as her when I grow very old. Yeah, we're that similar.

But now she's passed away. Today is her funeral and I can't make it to attend. As you know that I live in Padang, and my hometown is Sumedang, and I have to take flight to Bandung or Jakarta to get there. The time is just not enough to make it. It's so hurt when I call my father and hear his shaking voice and told me to calm. Instead, I was upset. And the reason I was upset is confusing, is it because: I can't make it to her funeral, I didn't get to see her for the last time, or the fact that my birth day is ruined?

By the way, last December I got so many dreadful (did I say dreadful?) experiences. I won't tell you everything but my carelessness was finally caught me. So my resolution to 2014 is, to be least careless and minimize my rush-ness behavior. Uh, I don't know. I can't really write anything useful right now because of my grief. Well thank you for all your kind attention to congratulate and pray me. You don't know how much it means to me. And please, please, send my Grandma your prayer too. Today is my birthday, but also my Grandma's funeral. So you're gonna pray us both. Thank you again for reading this. :)

P.S: Don't worry, I didn't write this during my work hour, everyone here is doing our aerobic activity and since I'm not in the mood to do it, I wrote this super quick post. Thanks.

7 cm

I never know that having a long distance relationship is this hard. Every time I look up the map, searching for my exact location, I am like, "Okay, Medan to Sumedang is only like 7 cm". But it is only on the map. The exact distance between Medan to Sumedang is 2,367 km and the only way to reach it is only by plane. *poker face* Traveling by plane is not something you could easily do every time you feel like you want to do it. Despite its expensive price, you still need to book the seat first.

Medan - Sumedang is only 7 cm.

For me who had a very long life in Java, I still surprise how our planning and time management skill are extremely required to live in here. So now I have this notebook with everything scheduled and written here. I start to write our holiday and day-off dates and plan my trip (not to mention if I suddenly have any occupational trip). Also, I need to save a lot of money to prevent me from bankruptcy (I KNOW this is soo exaggerated) so I can easily fly when I need to - or in this case, when I miss this person. The worst part is, now I'm so poor I can't go to Sumedang and meet up. :(

Namu What?

So this is a report about my trip to a place called Namu Sira-Sira, a river dam in North Sumatra. It's a trip with our office mates, especially from our division, HSE (Health, Safety, Environment). I've never do rafting before so I was extremely excited. Too bad, I forgot to apply the right sun block on my skin so right now I am soooo tanned :(

Laboratory going Safety

Okay, first of all, I apologize for my posts are not made in English recently. It's simply because I'm quite busy with my "BPS" life (my work place) and rarely make drawings or illustrations. So, please enjoy the pictures below and I must tell you, I'm gonna do English (and illustration) posts again very soon. :)

Ehem...jadi kemaren 'kan aku pernah cerita kalau program BPS sudah resmi ditutup pada akhir November kemarin, dan sekarang kami sudah diangkat (sejak 1 Desember 2012 tepatnya) menjadi karyawan. Ya! Karyawan! Hehe. I always speechless kalau menyadari fakta ini. Tempat kerja saya ini dipenuhi anak jurusan teknik. Dan saya, ehem, MIPA.

Oke deh, anak MIPA yang suka menggambar. :D

Sejarahnya panjang. Jadi dulu itu memang perusahaan saya butuh beberapa orang lulusan sains murni (baca: kimia) untuk ditaro di lab. Dan saya juga pernah cerita kalau saya kemarin OJT paling lama di lab. Makanya aku sih udah siap-siap aja kembali ke "habitat" awalku waktu kuliah (as a lab rat, of course). Sampe-sampe di kosanku yang di Cilacap itu, barang-barangku masih kutinggal di sana. Karena emang biasanya tempat OJT yang didiami dalam waktu lama itulah yang bakal jadi tempat kerja kita nantinya.

Dan eh, saya salah sangka!