A Motivating Arrogance

One good thing can basically makes your day; while another thing doesn't. How about TWO good things? Like, when they are combined into one. It supposed to make a combo effect, like a good good-thing. But lately I found it wrong. And this is what happened to me a week ago.

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Ketika kamu berada dalam sebuah tatanan sosial, dengan sendirinya kamu akan mencoba banyak cara untuk fit in dengan tatanan tersebut. Contohnya saya. Ketika saya merasa orang lain melihat sesuatu dari sudut pandang yang lebih tinggi dari saya, saya pun mencoba untuk berdiri sama tinggi dengan mereka supaya kami bisa berbicara tanpa ada seorang pun yang merasa direndahkan. Salah satu cara termudah adalah dengan memakai sepatu yang disebut "wedges".

(Nah sekarang anda tau "tinggi" seperti apa yang saya maksud *huft*).

Wedges adalah bentuk lain dari high heels atau sepatu ber-hak tinggi, namun dalam bentuk yang lebih "ramah" karena hak-nya itu tidak selancip sepatu-sepatu model dan bisa dikategorikan aman karena tebalnya itu. Saya yang alergi high heels melihat fenomena ini sebagai suatu kesempatan besar. Oleh karena itu sebulan yang lalu saya pun membeli sepasang wedges. Jarang sekali saya membeli sepatu akan tetapi ketika melihat sepatu ini di payless, saya pikir saya harus membelinya.

My wedges.

Cancelled

Just derping around with my old files when suddenly found these pieces of comics (lame ones, though). So here they are (its in Bahasa, sorry):

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2013 = 23

I told you this like over and over again, but well I can't help not to say this. So this is why I'm excited with the whole new year thing: I've got my birthday just 2 days after the NYE. Hehe. No, I'm not really celebrating myself. It's the same day as the other days are. Only, people send us their prayer, their gifts, and their treat-requests. (Thanks for everyone who sent me the birthday messages, texts, walls, mentions and calls).

One of the best moments was I've got a rainbow cake for my birthday from my new friends in the same boarding house. It was really unexpected because they are my new friends who apparently haven't know me well to give me something like a cake. But I do appreciate that. Big thank you guys! :)

Thank you "Pinky Residence fellows" :)

The best part is of course the prayers you guys sent me. You know, I truly believe in the power of prayers. So I'm not bothered with that. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. 0:)

If Happiness and Grief Should Be Combined

So, yeah, I'm 24 now. And it's like an obligation for me to write about my last year and resolution and whatsoever similar, on the 3rd of January, right on my birth day. But today is not the happiest day of my life since yesterday my Grandma has passed away. It's quite a surprise because the one who has been sick is my Grandpa, not her. And she was just suddenly left us. Yeah, it's that sudden and what a surprise - I really don't like surprises and heck this is an ugly one. 

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From now on, I'll remember my birth date as my Grandma's funeral date, too. :(

The last time I met her like, two weeks ago when I took my first leisure day-off, she asked my mother about my marriage plan. I refused to answer it because well, I hasn't plan any (a note: I don't talk about my private life in this blog). It's a common question for girls my age and I don't really bothered. What really bothered me is, when people keep talking about "that plan" whilst they passed away like one by one. It really is a grief. Back to the topic, so my Grandma, she's my father's mom. My elementary school is just in front of her little shop. I used to visit her in my break time, along with my childhood friend, and my cousins. We used to sleep over in her house and listen to the stories my Grandpa told us. She spoiled us all, especially me. We have a lot of similarities. I even imagine myself as her when I grow very old. Yeah, we're that similar.

But now she's passed away. Today is her funeral and I can't make it to attend. As you know that I live in Padang, and my hometown is Sumedang, and I have to take flight to Bandung or Jakarta to get there. The time is just not enough to make it. It's so hurt when I call my father and hear his shaking voice and told me to calm. Instead, I was upset. And the reason I was upset is confusing, is it because: I can't make it to her funeral, I didn't get to see her for the last time, or the fact that my birth day is ruined?

By the way, last December I got so many dreadful (did I say dreadful?) experiences. I won't tell you everything but my carelessness was finally caught me. So my resolution to 2014 is, to be least careless and minimize my rush-ness behavior. Uh, I don't know. I can't really write anything useful right now because of my grief. Well thank you for all your kind attention to congratulate and pray me. You don't know how much it means to me. And please, please, send my Grandma your prayer too. Today is my birthday, but also my Grandma's funeral. So you're gonna pray us both. Thank you again for reading this. :)

P.S: Don't worry, I didn't write this during my work hour, everyone here is doing our aerobic activity and since I'm not in the mood to do it, I wrote this super quick post. Thanks.