Catatan OJT II: Juni

Sebenernya aku gak begitu yakin mau nulis apa di sini. Tapi berhubung aku sudah terlanjur menulis tentang OJT bagian I, maka rasanya akan jomplang kalau tiba-tiba bagian ke-II ini hilang, karena sebentar lagi OJT III malah sudah bakalan berakhir.

Jadi kenapa aku kurang excited di OJT II, karena bulan lalu aku seperti lagi berada di titik terendah kehidupanku. (lebay, noted). Bayangin aja, kakakku nikah dan aku gak bisa datang. Rasa sakitnya masih kerasa sampai sekarang lho. Terus, aku juga kepentok masalah childish issue. Hmm sebenarnya, jika moody dan uring-uringan adalah salah satu tanda ketidakdewasaan seseorang, mungkin aku tidak akan pernah jadi dewasa, karena moody sudah mendarah daging di tubuhku. Hehe. Udah gitu, karena suatu hal, aku dibilang “merajuk” sama teman-temanku. Hmm gak baik loh tiba-tiba membuat kesimpulan subyektif begitu. (sekarang kalian tau kenapa aku nulis tentang candy waktu itu). Entah ya, ternyata berusaha dewasa itu sulit. Apalagi kalau kamu jadi yang paling muda dan orang-orang gak yakin kamu bisa dewasa. Terlanjur ada cap “anak bawang” di jidatmu gitu loh. Gimana rasanya?

Me and Mine

I don’t know if I will post this note or not but if you read this right now, that’ll mean that I posted it (obviously!). Look, recently I’ve been busy thinking. Uhm..let’s say, something about myself, something about my fate, something about ME. Anything with a big words MY followed with that self-centered stuff. That’s the selfish me I (sadly) couldn’t noticed earlier. And during that selfish period, a lot of things happened. Like, something about my younger brother, something about my grand pa, something about my cat.. something.. Well see, the word “MY” keep coming. But now, they are followed by something around, that I totally forgot they are also MINE.

Hangman's hill. This just the world that we live.

This burden, I mean, responsibility, will keep coming and stay on your shoulder. You just have no rights to choose “next time maybe” rather than “now please”. Even if you think that it’s too early for you to take all the responsibility now.

That Label

The hardest part of being the youngest person in town is the label "childish" they put on your forehead. No matter how much you've tried to fit in, no matter how much you've struggled to blend, they still have their doubt on you. 

Man.. believe me, you're exactly growing up. Even if they couldn't see it. Even if they doubt it. Maybe it's just, you grow too slow. And who said that if you grow slower than anyone else is a sin? That's not your fault. No one is interested to be a "Peter Pan" forever (maybe I would like to, but not in this real world. ha ha).

So keep growing. Keep trying. No fear. No doubt. You don't have to prove anything. You just have to be you. Even if they keep giving you candies just to stop your mouth from blabbing and crying (even if in fact you don't do any).

Too bad they considered you as a child so they give you the candy to make you stop blabbing.

It's not the candies you should blame on. It's about your reaction that makes you become a grown up or child (thanks to a friend who gave me this quote, although I changed it a bit).

*the word "you" on the whole post above refers to "I". 

Catatan OJT I: Mei

Kali ini ada cerita mengenai pengalaman OJT pertamaku di tempat kerja. Jujur ini adalah pertama kalinya aku bekerja, maksudku, the actual job. Not the ghost-writer stuff or else. Makanya rasanya udah kayak excited, senang, tapi juga waswas. Maklum, aku punya banyak isu sosial. Seriously. Aku sering susah untuk ngomong di depan umum, atau bahkan ngomong buat sekedar ngobrol. Tapi itulah justru yang bikin aku ingin bertahan. Aku seperti ditantang untuk meminimalisir efek buruk isu tersebut. Yah..gak ngoyo juga sih. Karena prinsipku, kita emang harus nyoba, tapi please banget jangan too much alias don't try too hard! Nanti bakalan capek. Asikin aja (Ipul's quotes).

Oke, di sini kita main-main soal asumsi versus fakta tentang OJT I (my findings, of course).

OJT I kira-kira mengenai produk di dalam tangki bola ini.

Nuansa Pagi

Nah...di tempat OJT pertama itu, ada kebiasaan unik setiap paginya. Jadi di situ ada "nuansa pagi". Pas denger pertama kali sih bingung juga ya, soalnya yang aku tau, nuansa pagi itu judul acara berita di salah satu TV swasta.